Why am I constantly surrounded by abusers?

Lately I find myself surrounded by people who don’t align with my values at all. I don’t understand why this keeps happening. From family members to service staff. What is it I am doing that makes these people think I enjoy their company?

Theres so much pain when you’re with these people as well. Pain they inflict on you. Pain they must be in to not be able to notice the affect their actions are having on people. Pain i worry I am going to absorb and become ok with and repeat the same patterns. Pain I have to be in because their actions plunge me into all…